Positive or Negative?

At the end of June I was starting to be very crabby, VERY tired and a little nauseous every morning. Matt kept saying that he thought I was pregnant. I kept saying I wasn't (more to protect my emotions) because how could it have happened so fast?? We just started trying. In my heart, I felt that I was pregnant, but I kept telling my head and Matt that we could not possibly be already and that we would wait a few weeks to take a test. What I really wanted to do was run to the bathroom and take a test right then. Sometimes I'm too practical for my own good!

I took a test late on Monday June 28th (I couldn't wait!). It was one of those Dollar Store ones that you don't mind using if it is negative since it is so cheap. Learned that one from my friend Lora! Let me just say, pregnancy tests are hard to figure out what they are trying to say. Two lines, one line, colored lines, +, -, pregnant, not pregnant (well the last four are easy!). Who designs these things? A positive test with this particular one was two pink lines one dark pink the other light pink. The dark pink showed up fine, the light pink was there but very faint. We both got a little excited...after we figured out it meant positive...and then I tried to calm us both down because false positives happen. After Matt went to the other room, the reality that it could be happening set in. I got excited, giddy and then extremely nervous and overwhelmed. Me a mother? Am I really ready for this? I'm too young. What if I am not a good mother? Matt popped back in to snap me back to reality and tell me that it would be okay and we had plenty of time to prepare (me...worry). I went to bed, but could hardly sleep. When I did sleep I had strange dreams. We had decided to not take a test until Wednesday, but I couldn't wait. At 6:15 am on June 30, 2010 the more expensive test said "Pregnant" within seconds! I ran in to tell Matt. I cried a little bit, and smiled a ton and he said "Great! I am excited! Morty 's a little guy. Now I'm going to go back to sleep so it doesn't overwhelm me."

And now the real fun begins. Wow, we are going to be parents! God give us what we need and protect that little baby growing inside of me.

Morty, sorry in advance for all the times we embarrass you...because we will...A LOT!